Goodness

So I had a great weekend of training and birthday celebration! My training really renewed my faith in my inner goodness. It's funny how we can let ourselves get down about things reacting to others. I am way too susceptible to this and have been really trying to observe it in myself. I think that is why I was drawn to Anusara. The idea that we already have the inner goodness, that we don't have to "be" good because we already are good is soothing. All we have to do is recognize this goodness.

Part of this is also recognizing the good in others. When somebody says or does something that causes me to react negatively, doubt my goodness, I tend to doubt theirs as well. And yet our philosphy tells us this in all of us. And my doubt stems from the supreme's veils in order to play that cosmic game of hide and seek. Understanding that in my head is easy, in my heart is much more difficult.

But I will continue. I start back to school next week and I admit I am a bit nervous. I am proud of my accomplishments over the summer - my practice, my health, this blog, etc. I worry that going back to so much activity and responsibility will overwhelm me again and these accomplishments will fall by the wayside as they did last year. So I cling to this notion that I do not have to "be" good. That if I recognize my goodness I can continue.

To the goodness in all of you who read and support me...namaste.